me or another?

sad.

for the unresolved matters,
i thought i was noble; forgiving in fact.
but aft all these time,
i now feel stupid.

i'm not perfect.
not independent.
not understanding.
not a thousand n one things.
but does tt make me undeserving?

for all the things i did.
for all the excuses i put up with.
for all the hurt i forgave.
for all the strength it took to hold on.
for all the time i spent.
for all the sacrifice.

i did it all not bcoz u wanted me to.
neither was it bcoz i owed u.
i kept giving bcoz i love u.
n lub-lub, i dun need reasons to prove tt.

attention n care aside,
i need to feel appreciated.
i need to feel i matter.
i need more than wrds.
i need more than hugs.


i wish i knew u a couple of yrs later, when i'm more matured. perhaps then, it cld last.